all i have ever wanted

I HAVE PLENTY OF AMBITION. PLENTY OF GOALS, PLENTY OF DREAMS. THE ONLY THING I’M SHORT OF IS FAITH IN MYSELF. I’M SCARED OF LIVING, BECAUSE I KNOW THAT REALITY IS EVENTUALLY GOING TO COME AND BITE ME IN THE ASS, AND I’M GOING TO BE STUCK WITH A DEAD END JOB AND A BORING LIFE. ALL I’M EVER GOING TO BE IS ‘POTENTIAL’. THAT’S ALL ANYONE WILL EVER SAY OF ME FOR THE REST OF MY CONFORMIST FUCKING LIFE, AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS TURN A BLIND EYE TO IT BECAUSE I’M TOO WEAK TO PREVENT IT. I HATE NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR ME, IT’S MORE OR LESS MY GREATEST FEAR. AND I WONDER, AM I ALONE?